In a break after a military operation
on a hillside,
I sit front of a rock with my gun.
My eyes are looking at very far to dream
your sweet smile,
Suddenly, i remember the nice days
we passed together and the nights
we were sleepless,
How happy we were when we look at
eachother’s eyes,
And now, for three months
I miss so much that your caressing my
hair in bed, sleeping by looking at your
smiling eyes, and your waking me up by
kissing my lips, the romantic evenings
that we wanted them never end,
enjoying with you like crazies n playing
games like kids and your consoling me
everytime I lost it,
I missed them so much that…
And, I wonder how you are now, and
what you are doing, I don’t know
whether you got accustomed to my
absence or not and kissing my soldier
photo i sent last month like I do yours
everynight. Even if my body is here, on
mountains, my mind is always there and
thinking you. But I console myself by
thinking your visit to me a few days
later,
And making plans about
the special weekend that we will spend
together.
First, we’ll go to a florist and I’ll give
you the bouqet of rose that you like
most and that I scattered in our
bedroom on our romantic nights,
Then we’ll go to a restaurant and have
a nice meal together.
Maybe I’ll only watch your angelic
eyes,
more than eating, and
we’ll go to a park
where children play,
we’ll sit on a bank,
and watch them by dreaming
our future kids,
Then, we’ll buy an ice-cream and
hand in hand we’ll go to a high place
where nobody exists,
We’ll watch the all city there by
licking the same ice-cream.
When we finish it, we’ll suck eachother’s lips to clean
the remains of ice-cream, and we’ll kiss eachother
until sunset,
Later we’ll go to city again and
enter into a disco and dance till midnight,
Then we’ll go to a big hotel
and stay in a room with big bed,
We’ll taste all pleasures of love that we missed for
three months, till morning.
Do you know everything fades into background
while dreaming you?
There is only one pain inside me;
The pain of being seperated from you.
Suddenly, i feel a warmth on my left side, as if
something hot is covering my body,
And somewhere on my left is aching,
I feel a pain in my heart,
I touch with my hand and feel the hotness of a liquid
on my green soldier cloth.
Later, I raise my hand and see the blood dripping
from my fingers,
The pain is surrounding all my body,
I lose my strenght second by second,
I see your blurry image
And everything i lived in past
passes like a time tunnel
front of my eyes in a few seconds;
our huggings, looking at eachother’s eyes in bed,
caressing your soft hair and cheeks, consoling
eachother when we are sad…
Everything gets lost, i don’t have
the power to dream anymore,
I , last time, see your image,
Your wet eyes look at me as if saying,
“Please, don’t go!”
My hands are trembling,
And the bullet in my heart is burning my all body.
Your image is slowy disappearing and
Only four words come out from my lips
“Forgive me my angel”
And my lifeless head drops on my right shoulder.....